GASP!

An injury...

I would like to say it was one caused by triumph and endurance but in fact it was not. I hurt my ankle and knee during a coed softball game. I stepped on Second Base wrong and turned it a little. So, I had to take a break from my running. I think tomorrow I will be back and ready to go tackling 3 miles on Friday and 4 on Saturday! I know I am slow to start, but as I mentioned before I have been hesitant about this whole process. I know that TNT is supposed to be an empowering experience, but I have felt so socially awkward that I keep avoiding my running group. I know I need to suck it up and get out there at 7:00 AM this Saturday. I need to just remember that no matter what happens I will be ok, and that no one is judging me. Listen to me, I sound like a scared middle schooler. I know that once I bite the bullet and meet the group I will feel so excited.

Too much talking, no enough doing right? I can't believe I am going to run 4 miles. I know compared to 26.2 that seems small, but I don't think I have EVER ran that far before.

Next week I am up to 5 and in a couple I will be up to late. I am a bit behind my schedule, but I am not going to let that stop me!

Deep breath. I can do this. Again, too much talking, not enough doing. I AM going to FINISH this and cross the finish line knowing I not only ran 26.2 miles but also raised money for an amazing cause.

Mirror Mirror on the Wall....

Mirror Mirror on the wall...

I have started to train for my the Marine Corp Marathon with TNT. I find myself looking in the mirror in the morning before a run trying to psyche myself up to run. I have been crippled by self doubt, self loathing, and anxiety concerning my possible inability to train, run and fund raise for the event. This is not normally like me. I usually attack a task with veracity and purpose. This has been a constant battle for me and after communicating with my team captain, who shared with me that she in fact has the same fear, I decided to feel the fear and do it anyway. After a couple set backs (I could NOT find my running group last weekend) I am ready to attack this training like a lion. Starting tomorrow I am committing to follow my training, get lots of rest and hydrate and eat right. I am tired of looking in the mirror and seeing what I think is failure (in the diet and fitness arena anyway) and start looking at a determined and strong woman.

This blog is going to be my venue to discuss my training, my diet, my fears and my successes.

I hope to embrace this as an outlet for all my woes and worries but also my joy.

I think in the next couple weeks, I will feel the confident and unstoppable.